Finding self love

you know ever since I was a little girl, I was always criticized on what I could or couldn't wear what make up I could wear or if it made me look like a slut or not. It is OK for my younger sister to wear blue eyeshadow, but on me, I was a slut. it was OK for another siblings shoulders to be showing but when I did it, I was a whore. we grew up where we were supposed to get dressed up to even go to Walmart. Getting married at 18 falling into a deep depression getting told if I would just get up and get ready and do my make up and my hair I would feel better about myself. You know, hearing those things, your entire life really messes with you as an adult. For so long I felt that every day I needed to get up put my hair extensions in put on my eyelashes, in order to feel beautiful. I went life like that every day to where my 10-year-old son said he would prefer to see me all dolled up rather than dressed down with no hair done or make up done because he's not used to seeing me that way. you guys I have found a man who tells me he doesn't like the eyelashes he'd prefer me to go without the hair extensions. He likes me in my natural state and I have repeatedly told him he's crazy. But today I woke up and I FaceTime my sister and she looked at me and told me i looked so beautiful. Then I FaceTime one of my best friends and again I heard you were so dang beautiful. It really hit me hard because today I went and looked in the mirror and I could honestly see what they see. I am so lucky to have found a man who is so good to me and reminds me how beautiful I am without all the cosmetics and beauty supplies. I'm so lucky to have friends and family who can still look at me and call me beautiful when I'm dressed down and bumming around the house. here's to a great beginning of self love